Blogging is hard. Producing YouTube videos is hard. My attempt at being a content creator has had its ups and downs. Most of the time, I don't have the motivation. I feel burnt out every time I produce a video or article. The consistency just isn't there.
I am not a creative person. I'll be the first to admit this. At least I don't believe so. I am, however, a person that can duplicate. I can produce content based on other people's style or taste but it's hard for me to come up with something uniquely myself. This goes for my woodworking, metalworking and leather working as well.
Every time I produce any type of content, whether it be an article, video, or a social media post. There is an instant feeling of creativity depletion. This typically causes me to second guess myself and my work. It also causes a delay ripple for future posts.
It's been nearly two months since I've posted a brand new blog. About two weeks since I've posted a YouTube video. Even writing this blog has been constant distractions. I've fallen off too far and for too long.
In the last two months, I've traveled to multiple locations in Utah and California. Plenty of content to write about and plenty of video to go through. Yet the content that I come up with does not seem to fit my standards. I have a few articles in queue that don't seem enjoyable to read. The videos that I took don't seem like they're interesting enough for an end product.
I've struggled as a content creator. But I will continue to try and push on through because I'd rather be doing this than working a 9 to 5.
The purpose of this blog entry is not just to rant but instead encourage other content creators to keep on pushing. It also serves as a reminder to myself why I'm doing this. Why I'm putting myself out there. You might not see the reward now but hopefully it'll be there in the near future.
Maybe its perception but I've stuck a bunch of vinyl decals around things that I see on a daily basis as a reminder to keep going. Small things for a mental edge.